Do nothing in the Airport

When i have nothing can do in the Airport but only free WiFi for an hour time... Let's blog again! Is very long wait till my flight at 10:40pm. Checking the peoples rushing to queue for boarding, can't wait to go home meet their love one, an ending for their family trip and so on...

What about me? I'm waiting the time to go back the reality and start my working journey again. Gosh... isn't this getaway trip a little bit too short?! Just a 3D2N getaway to keep me revive from all the dumb things i did? Well... Life wasn't like what we wish to be.

Ring the bell, bell ringing
Queue to back, Queue to go
Journey start, journey end
Broken heart or Happy soul

People come, people gone
Fill with noise, left with peace
Look at left, look at right
No one else but me, myself

What's on mind, What's in heart
Clear your mind and ask your heart
Those you miss, have it gone
Those you care, have it stay

Word of wisdom, voice of wise
Where to go, Where to stay
Guide me through with your words
Lead me there with your voice

Here it is, here it is
The tiny star that shine in dark
Bring me there
A place called Home

Tired soul, tired heart
Get a rest, get some peace
Sky turns bright
You've reborn...

I'm really sleepy now waiting for my turn to boarding and i do hope to have good sleep tonight and not chasing whole night by ghost in dream anymore. When the sky turn bright again tomorrow, I have REBORN~  =) hope my broken manglish didn't bored you.

Naam OMG

Finally the last day here. I allow myself to roll on the bed till 10:30am and i can't take it anymore. Let's get up to bath and pack. Argh! Time to go back reality after few days eat, sleep and walk here. But at least i have some returned that i have a fresh mind and good start again.

After check out, carrying my hand carry luggage and walking like a mammoth to the restaurant i went last night but closed. I must try it before i leave! Guess my stomach really well feed by me and i don't really feel too hungry even already lunch time. After sat down, let's take a look at the menu, there are quite a few main dishes looks really interesting such as beef burger, pasta  and some other western food. Not he name interesting but the description of the food. Nah, i can't recall how they describe but you will just feel delicious from those words. They are one of the restaurant awarded 5 stars by Tripadvisor.

Let's have something light today for my first meal, Mushroom soup.. Forest mushroom soup they named it and i hope this round i can get the real wild mushroom. Let's add on with some vege, Casaer Salad with egg, streaky beef bacon, Parmesan cheese... Ya i still the cheese lover and i can't deny it even i said i will take something light.

FINALLY! IS REALLY WILD MUSHROOM SOUP after all ! Nothing much to describe about wild mushroom soup. Those who love mushroom soup should know from the picture. Look at the colour and you should know the texture and taste are good and it comes with a piece of bread. Potion is not really big, you might need to order something else to keep your stomach full. If you are strictly on diet, then you can just go for this soup itself. This soup cost you RM 18 and i think is reasonable for it quality.

Let's look at the salad. WOW... look at the cheeseeeee on top of all the vege... This salad also cost RM 18.

I never know there is a surprise until i split away all the cheese slices... There is egg there yo... i nearly accidentally poke into my favorite egg yolk! Luckily haven't reach it.

The salad taste quite good just the streaky beef bacon a little too hard for me. The cheese they put in this salad are definitely generous! This salad also not a big portion, you probably can have it after the soup then you will feel just the right potion for lunch.

Oh ya... what have i ordered for drinks? No beer again, and the bartender intro me one of their signature 'OMG cooler'. Get to know from him this drinks are mixture of pineapple juice, ginger ale and some other ingredients. This drinks are definitely refreshing and cooling during this hot weather. Is really good recommendation and well done!

Their service are quite good and served us with cold towel in this hot weather. Staff are polite and well manner, just that the manpower might be an issue when you need someone, you gotta wait for a moment. Maybe during dinner time will be better.

Date : 24th April 2015, Friday (Sunny)

Venue : Naam OMG

Location : In front of Cenang Mall (Opposite Chatime/Starbucks)

Yellow Cafe

Walked past this Naam OMG grilled bar & restaurant many times but never try their food before. But I'm unlucky to choose the wrong day to dine in. They usually close early on Thursday night at 8:30pm might due to Night Market nearby caused less traffic here. But they used to have live band during night time.

Since they are open 12pm onwards, i decided to visit them on the next day and move to another place ... Yellow Cafe which is a cafe & bar on the beach.

There are actually a narrow corridor walk in to the beach and you will see your left is beach bar and right will be the restaurant. What i can say is the view and the overall environment are really good. Enjoy drinks on the beach but with proper seating which is fantastic for those who don't like to get dirty sitting on the beach. 

They don't really have much choice but is enough for you to have different variants you think of. They have sandwiches, pizza, pasta, chicken, lamb, beef, seafood and of course some starter. Each of the category they have 2 - 3 choices but pizza, beef and sandwiches will have more.  Due to i been eating and drinking the whole day non-stop, my stomach is complaining me feed them too much. Ended up i ordered white sauce spaghetti with chicken & mushroom. While waiting for the meal, let's enjoy the seaview and windy night.

Tar dang ! Here is my white sauce spaghetti. Basically it not really white sauce like creamy carbonara, it more like brown creamy sauce. Sorry on the picture quality due to night time my phone camera is really bad. Another disappointment here is not wild mushroom again. Overall the taste are fine but not too high expectation on it ya. I shall say the price a bit pricey for the quality and no mosquitoes repellent there. Once i done with the food and drinks i leave the place. Maybe it will be better if visit them at noon time at least you less headache on the mosquito love bites.

Date : 23rd April 2015, Thursday (Windy)

Venue : Yellow Cafe 

Location : Cenang Beach (small junction to turn in before The Cliff Restaurant junction)

Wakaba Japanese Restaurant

After the country feel morning breakfast digested, time to enjoy one of my Japanese cuisine now~
This Japanese restaurant not much attraction from far or it outlook. It located at 1st Floor of Cenang Mall and you might miss it if you didn't really look around.

What will come to your mind when i tell you Japanese cuisine and located at Cenang Mall. Definitely you will think of bloody price should be damn high. No worries, they have this set menu which cost from RM 20 - RM 50. This restaurant also awarded 4 1/2 stars by tripadvisor.

What a hot weather here at beach is even 'hotter'! What will you do? Beer? No to me but Cold Sake yo! I'm not sure are you a sake person, but in the hot afternoon take a sip of cold sake and the fruity aroma in your throat make you feel is so cooling yet refreshing. ahhhhh..... This is the second time i saw this traditional cold sake container. Normally they will just use ice to chill the bottle instead. This do really add some credit on food presentable to this restaurant. It wont be too expensive for the sake, it cost RM 33 for this and actually enough for 2 persons sharing.

What should i order? I'm not a very adventurous person to try their mackerel or Sashimi, so end up i order Chicken Sioyaki set. What is the set come with? Vege Salad, Tamago Taufu, Miso Soup, Rice & Fruits. And this set only cost you RM20, and if you order green tea that cost you RM 4. In total RM 24 you can have a complete meal is consider the cheapest food along Cenang beach.

Oh ya, you might doubt that all the waiters seems not local but no doubt their chef is really Japanese, i happen to saw him once on my last visit. The taste of food are slightly different. Let me intro you one by one what is the different with what we have normally.

Lets talk a bout the Salad first. You might find it nothing special with some soy sauce looking dressing. But when the moment you put in your mouth, there is an aroma that very familiar and you just can't describe it. What is that taste?! You definitely ate before and just can't recall in a sudden. Argh! Is Wasabi taste! You can't really know it is Wasabi when you first try, it won't be that chocking as the Wasabi in your mind, it just only a very mild aroma of it to make this salad more unique and special.

Let's move on to the next... Tamago Taufu. It just looks like a normal taufu but why i name it Tamago Taufu? You should know there is yellowish round tube shape 'Japanese Taufu' we call it normally can get from wet market and they always claim the different is Japanese Taufu made with egg. This is what i really call 'Japanese Taufu' and it really contain egg in there. In Japanese, they called egg as Tamago so i named it Tamago Taufu. If hard for me to show you how soft is this Taufu but what i did is use a pair of chopstick to cut it. I don't even need to use much strength, just slightly move my fingers and it cut thru the Taufu.
Let's talk about the taste after the texture. I'm a failure on traditional chopstick holding, so i must use spoon to help carry it up till my mouth. When you put in your mouth, try not to chew it but let it melt by pushing with your tongue. When it melt in your mouth and there is a strong aroma of Tamago surround your mouth as well. There you will feel, this is really Tamago Taufu.

The main dish Chicken Sioyaki! What it mean? I seriously not so sure but from my understanding should be salted chicken. It really taste like salted chicken but with additional point on it skin. Not so sure who they cook this chicken but you can taste this is salted chicken with slight crispy chicken skin. It is not like fried chicken skin that crispy, but it like you grilled it BBQ way and the skin become slight crispy. This are one of the good dish to eat along with Japanese rice that have a bit of sticky. It just feel perfect to eat with rice. But friendly reminder, don't order garlic fried rice with this ya, you might find it too salty after all.

Besides 3 of this, i shall mentioned about the miso soup. The ingredient of miso soup is just nice and with quality control. You will not find those common seaweed in this miso soup but you find the better quality and thicker seaweed in it. Overall you can taste is fresh daily miso soup with good ingredient. Sorry due to heavy rain coming, not manage to get pictures of it. To me, i will definitely visit this Japanese Restaurant again if i have chance. There are still so much food i should discover from their menu.

Date : 23rd April 2015, Thursday (Gloomy)

Venue : Wakaba Japanese Restaurant

Location : 1st Floor Cenang Mall (Opposite Chocolate duty free shop)

The English Tea Room & Coffee Bar

Wake up in the morning, water heater not working! Argh!!! Let's have a refreshing cold water bath before heading to my english breakfast place.

I'm not sure only me or this is true, i find that is quite hard to get a proper western breakfast place along Pantai Cenang. So far i only spotted 2 and today I'm heading to one of it which looks more country feel.

Looking at the outside of the shop, not a very attractive shop and looks a bit running down. Maybe due to all year expose under the hot sun. The waiter open the door and greet me Good Morning, the moment i step into this shop, the feel is totally different with it outside. Wooden furniture, floral printed table cloths and small sofa corner to relax. All their deco relate to UK and overall feel very Britain.

Well, all the staff here are very friendly and polite. Really a good place to start your morning with warm greetings and sunny smile. Looking at the menu, 'English Breakfast Set' that is what i looking for! You can choose either 5 sides for RM 22 or 7 sides for RM 25. I took 5 sides due to i do not like grilled tomatoes and baked beans. This breakfast set comes with drinks (Coffee, Tea or Orange Juice). They are one of the restaurant recommended by tripadvisor as well.Their smoothie/milkshake seems one of the signature as well but I'm too full to order that as well.

While waiting for my breakfast to be ready, i look around this little shop and try to enjoy the environment here. Am i still in Pantai Cenang or I'm at somewhere else. The feel are totally different with the Britain wall photos, curtains and most classic is the music! You must be very curious what music that makes me so excited. Well, for people at my age will definitely enjoy and miss it so much. They play all the boy band songs. 98 degree - I do, Back Street Boy, the boy bands who kill all of us in a blink of eyes. I'll never break your heart, As long as you love me and many more! All this really make my mood relax and recall the old days which less complicated, simple yet happy.

After 10 minutes recall of young time and laugh at myself, my breakfast is here!

Nothing too special compare to what you used to eat in KL. But for Langkawi, this English breakfast can consider one of the precious. I don't think is easy for you to find breakfast like this. Even tho their salted mushroom is not wild mushroom and that make me a bit disappointed but sometimes... something imperfect in life make the whole thing perfect. Mushroom not as expected nice but somehow it make the rest more tasty and precious. But to be honest, April is a low season in Langkawi and very risky for them to keep the easy expired wild mushroom just to fulfill my crave. Food or life, there will be disappointment and imperfect and make your life more perfect. Not to be too negative when you feel disappointed. Try to look at it at different view and you still can get what you want in future, just not this time. =)

Date : 23rd April 2015, Thursday (Sunny)

Venue : The English Tea Room & Coffee Bar

Location : Cenang Street (Opposite McD / Zon Duty Free)

My French Factory @ Pantai Cenang, Langkawi

In a not very hot evening, walking along at the Cenang street with undecided mind on what to eat for dinner, SUDDENLY there is something catch my eyes and my noisy stomach drag me to the shop immediately!

Look at the signboard with writing of 'My French Factory', awww... French just make me feel so romantic and handsome guy. hahahaha... Still remember i saw once someone having the egg crepe looking thing on my last trip but didn't get to try. NOW,TODAY, THIS MOMENT... Let's try it!

At first, are you a egg or cheese person? If you are not, you might not get attract by this. Flipping the menu and i decide to try salty crepe, smoked beef slices + egg + cheese. For those cheese lover, you can definitely add on more and more cheese as you like. They even have 3 types of cheese crepe to fulfill your crave!

Next, i have choose Pink Lemonade to match with my main course due to you might get a bit too much creamy taste if you go for milkshake. Definitely their milkshake look nice and tempting to me, especially they have banana milkshake. Damn!

After all the description, let's take a look at the food now!

Nah... you might said this just a fried egg looking flour thingy. Nope! You are wrong. They use traditional Galettes by wheat flour and you will not discover the fantastic taste before you cut it and put in your mouth. Let me show you the next moment of eyes popping moment when i cut it! Yum yum....

Look at the melted cheese wrap in the it and welly mix the taste of smoked beef slices with eggs... You will not believe the taste of all mix together but it just too nice and indescribable. I shall say, is a MUST TRY if you are in this area. You also can choose your way to eat it. As the shop owner just too nice to make all the folded side are filled with beef slices + melted cheese and egg. Every inch, every centimeter.

I choose to eat half of it and i attack the egg yolk! Just cut it out from the shape and suck it all in one shot! Definitely there will be some still running away from you mouth and drip on the plate. If you are egg lover like me you will never miss it anyway. Cut another piece of the Galettes and wipe up the egg yolk on the plate. That is how you feel satisfy with this French Salty Crepe.

Of course, with all these yummy creamy food, for sure we will need something sour to encounter the taste and for ladies, to feel better after some fattening food. Pink Lemonade will be one of the best choice to ease the over filled feeling and give you a refreshing taste during this hot weather as well. One of the best combination i have today!

Date : 22th April 2015 (Wednesday)

Venue : My French Factory

Location : Cenang Street (shops after Cenang Mall)

谈何容易的简简单单。。。

星期天   晴

坐在刚开市的咖啡厅里，有种格外的休闲感。
大家都闲着，聊着，懒洋洋着。。。
这就是所有人都需要的星期天。

生活、时事、情感，总是像天气般变换无常,
时阴、时晴、时好、时坏、时冷、时暖。。。
你又掌握得多熟练？

人生总少不了必要的挫折吧，
让你学着慢慢的长大，
成就了成熟、稳重、智慧且圆滑的你。

过程中，你有多少个身不由己的时候？
多少进退两难，痛彻心扉？
多少忍痛拭泪，不为人知的秘密？

你又因为身不由己而错过了什么？
因进退两难而放弃了什么，好让你痛彻心扉？
因谁而忍痛拭泪，把真相变成不为人知的秘密？

每个人都总说，我希望有个简简单单的人生。
简简单单，谈何容易。
你又领悟了多少？

当你拥有的是简简单单，你可否不贪婪拥有多一点？
当你拥有的不再简单时，你却又怀念起简简单单。。。
人与矛盾就像皮和肉，想分割清楚却很难。

很多的事情，不想再去强求。
既来之，则安之。
想说，我享受着一个人的宁静。
但，何时我又希望有个人在旁分享？
 

某个星期六 | 晴

忘了多久没有过这样的星期六。

也忘了我把闲着没事做的轻松抛弃多久。

坐在星巴克，空荡的遥望天空，

我深深的吸进一口气，再尽量弊着不放，

终于忍不住泄气了。。。

因此，眼中荡漾已久的水船也落下了。。。

凉风吹着，却有种伤感。

烟龙漂游，眼前何事真假。

刺鼻箊味，有如人生的哽咽。

人来人往，川流不息。

来的，抽着烟，皱着眉，

仿佛有着赶不走的烦恼。

坐的，拿着笔，挥动着，

仿佛很努力的在达成中。

谈的，对望着，欢笑中，

仿佛在苦闷中寻找欢乐。

伴的，沉默着，专心着，

仿佛为挑战在未雨绸缪。

老的，漫谈着，微笑着，

仿佛已看淡人世享受着。

单的，闲坐着，空荡着，

仿佛疲倦中能得到领悟。

走的，冲忙中，往前看，

仿佛害怕被社会给排斥。

在一番感言和细观后，还是得回到原来的轨道，

继续原本的道路。。。

努力的为未来活着吧~

A Wavy Night

Walking on the beach,
Feeling of the sand.
Looking at the side,
An old friend that i knew.
Nonsense on our mouth,
Memories in our mind.
Talk as our young time,
but felt that we are old.
Look at the kids,
running happily.
Look at the couples,
Lean against each other.
Look at the family,
Holding hand by hand.
Crafting on the sand,
Wash away by waves.
How long you can stay,
How far you can go.
The further i walk to the sea,
The deeper i get into it.
I'm far from the beach,
I'm blind in the sea.
I'm floating in between,
I'm losing of my way.
Listen to the waves,
slowly close my eyes.
What a silence night,
What a sadness night.

Rain Rain Rain...

Sitting on the couch,

Looking out the sky.

The sky is crying,

The wind is sighing.

Close my eyes,

Listen to my heart.

the melody of the tears,

giving me a calm.

Sigh from the wind,

freezing my cheek.

I'm standing in the cold,

but coldness from my heart.

A little of the warm,

Is the feeling from you.

Hugging me from back,

closer and tighter.

A smiling face appear,

a familiar voice at ears.

Touching on my face,

some words from you.

You will always be with me,

I will never be alone.

Tears dropping,

but from me not the sky.

You will never understand,

you will never believe.

Just a simple words,

but it's touching my heart.

Open my eyes,

just to see clearer.

Myself and me,

Still the only sitting here.

You are still not here,

there's no one hugging me.

You are just a dream,

which i willing to sleep for life.

Healthy Soupy Dinner For Us !

Venue: Tang Sifu (汤师傅), Sunway Pyramid

LG 2.32 (next to ichiban ramen)

A healthy re-charge, warm to heart soupy dinner after work with Karen.

After a tired working day with retarded mind,

is time to pamper ourselves a little bit more ~!

Most important is... we got our salary !

This shop was introduce by my friend, Karen.

Looks healthy and tasty and worth of money.

At first, i was thinking is quite pricey a set meal cost me RM 20++,

but when i see their menu, i'm totally out of control and drag Karen into the shop!

They do have 'pun choy' as well. What is that?

Is all the nice and fantastic mixture of dishes such as abalone, dried scallops, mushroom, meat and others,

put in a wooden pail layer by layer with the delicious natural gravy.

OMG! I'm drools now !!!

This is my dinner. Abalone slice + dried scallops mee shua.

Really taste nice and refreshing!

The sweetness of the soup is so homey feel.

It is not added MSG as the commercialize shop,

It won't really feel that thirsty after you eat it. Try it !

Look at the whole drumstick in the soup pot!

This is america ginseng chicken soup rice set.

When you look at the ingredients and taste it,

you will never regret to dine in here.

This meal is really healthy and re-charge,

yet worth of money.

Here's the full rice set to give you a picture, how worth is this dinner to you.

For those who hunger for mommy soup,

you can quench your desperate here.

If you are not feeling well or heaty due to the weather,

try their herbal tea as well.

special dedicated to different sickness.

I did tried their plum soup, and my throat do relief and better.

Try it! you will never regret.

A Relax Day Out On My Own ~

Is a sunny morning of Saturday,

Been such a long long time never woke up this early already.

Woke up 7.30 in the morning just like usual working day... boo~

But is a nice relax day for me.

Sometimes you just need sometimes to be alone and enjoy the moment.

For me, i have done it again.

Below is the journey for that Saturday:-

8.30am - Bus from Old Klang Road - KL sentral, KL Sentral - Damansara Heights.

9.15am - Enjoying my KFC breakfast which been missed the long long time.

9.45am - Get a cab to Plaza Damansara facial appointment

2.00pm - Hunting lunch @ Mid Valley before i back home and starve of hunger

My KFC breakfast !

Here is my KFC a.m rizer with orange juice~

Sounds so healthy.

Sorry guys, forgot to take picture of the latest a.m rizer burger.

KFC had change the scramble egg to the normal fried egg same as Mc D.

It taste abit different and not so cheesy feel as previous.

Suppose to be cheesy and fantastic when it match with the mayo~ (if you are mayo lover)

A bit disappointed but still quite nice to me.

Guess you must not be strange when you see this famous buble tea company - CHATIME !

Recently was quite famous and hot topic in the town.

Have tried few variants and is really very nice.

You can choose the sweetness level and the quantity of ice.

Sounds cool and is custom make for you ! Is personalize !

They do really use the real tea leaf to get different kind of tea to mix with the other ingredients.

Try it out. But i still like Red Bean Milk Tea less sugar hot and Yakult lemon juice with pearl.

Yes! Your eyes nothing wrong and i didn't write wrong as well.

They have HOT drink there!

This is not the crispy popiah that you know in Mid Valley.

Look at the poster, they have crispy popiah with tuna or spicy tuna!

Check out their FB website now!

My lunch of the day!

Red bean pearl milk tea hot + crispy popiah

Look at the filling ~

look at the crispy stuff !!!

I think the crispy popiah is not really as good as the other one,

but i haven't try their tuna crispy popiah.

But Chatime is a nice pearl milk tea to try ~!

Your sweetest memories yet the bitter

Do you know that i missing you so much?

I totally forgot how long i never hold you hand to walk.

How long i never kiss on you cheek before you leave for work.

How long i never jump on you when you back from work.

How long i never ask you to kiss my cheek.

How long i didn't sit on the bike with you.

How long i didn't cover myself under your jacket on the bike.

How long we never chit chat at the garden in front the house.

How long didn't go fishing with you.

How long never hear you scream at the dogs.

How long never see the shadow of your back.

How long i never tell you that i love you.

How long we never eat together on the same table.

How long we never go travel together.

I still remember a lots of our memories,

which is so sweet and warm to my heart.

Remember you hold my hand to zoo negara.

Remember you buy me my favorite porridge which need to queue for an hour.

Remember you send me to clinic when i fever.

Remember the way you carry me into the bedroom when i sick and weak.

Remember we eat banana together.

Remember i drink nestum with you after your mahjong session.

Remember the first time i buy you rojak.

Remember you always wait me outside when i off work.

Remember you never say anything even you waited me for an hour.

Remember the first time i cant contact you on your mobile.

Remember the first time i totally lost your news.

Remember i bought all the presents but i can't give it to you.

Remember how i meet you again and how excited i'm.

Remember the heart broken new that you admitted hospital cause illness.

Remember how sad i cook the porridge to you at that time.

Remember the last time when i leave the hospital.

Remember how you quietly follow at my back to see me the last time.

Remember i so innocents to escape from your eye sight cause want you to get rest.

Remember after that day i never see you looking at me anymore.

There are too much things that i remember.

I still feel the warm big hand of you holding my hand,

bring me to somewhere a playground.

Yes, is a dream.

And it only can happen in my dream now. =)

Waiting...

Slept for not more than an hour...

Clock tickling ... Air-cond blowing... Radio playing at the back...

Some playing with their iphone,

some busy with their works,

what about me? I'm unstopped looking at my phone.

Guess patience is a treasure that not much human have it.

Nope. My phone is not ringing but i just can't keep my eye away.

Today's time seems pass very slow, quietly, peacefully...

Mind is stuck, brain is stop, pictures of you passing through.

Tired mind, lazy body and a sour heart.

Be alone, quiet down, listen to your heart...

Do you hear your heart? Sincerely...

is dripping dripping and dripping... is blood ? or tears?

Air-cond blowing at my face,

So scare of my half open eyes to close,

and your faces will appear in the dark...

Stop thinking, stop looking

but just cant stop playback in my brain.

Try to focus but can't seems to focus,

Ended up lost my job.

Friend's concern, friend's advise,

but disappointed them at the end.

My New Living

Finally, i still have to move out from the previous place.

I'm now staying alone with 2 cats in a friend house.

Really appreciate on the help and happy to have true friends.

Is a rainy day, but i do nothing and just chill at home.

Staying with 2 of my cats,

was clearing my black head for an hour,

followed by a cold hydrating mask.

Oh my ~! Have been long time never enjoy this kind of lifestyle.

A fully rest and enjoy saturday for me.

Lazy to go out stuck in the busy commercial life,

yet enjoying my Saturday by do nothing,

but enjoying the cozy day.

Sometimes we are too busy to achieve and getting what we want.

But i believe a day of do nothing is a best day as well.

At least you get to rest your mind, soul and body as well.

Sometimes i do really need something like this to re-charge,

and continue to start fight for my future again.

Was still thinking the opportunity to oversea.

Should i leave or should i stay ?

Seriously i was hoping for this so long,

and now i got a chance and maybe not 100% but at least i can try.

I'm seriously tired and feel so miserable of all these days.

I'm quite lost but yet i still can see my direction covered by the thick haze.

I still no the same path but i do need a brand new start.

I do really hope i can get away from here,

have a brand new start.

Start at somewhere nobody knows me,

totally a new environment and culture to me.

With no limitation on the creativity.

To explore and wonder more and more which i never had before.

Even though i'm alone but i never scare.

All i want now is just that simple.

Maybe the only way to keep yourself happy is 'be simple'.

Maybe in our life we have too much things beyond control.

As i always said,

"We can't choose who we falling in love with,

but we can choose who to share our life with."

Feeling is very subjective and uncontrollable.

But sometimes we do need to back in the reality,

think rationally and logically, what's the next step to go.

We can't predict the future, but instead of waiting it to happen,

why don't i make a step to something under my control and manageable?

There is a voice always remind me when i wake up,

"Hey! you make a mistake. Get things right!"

Where did the voice come from?

Why it keep repeating in my mind?

The voice from guiltiness?

Guess i'm seriously not as cruel as what you see.

i'm blaming myself on the mistake everyday.

Most important, i'm worry at the same time.

I know myself well and it will become worse.

There is a never change theory in my mind set,

which is "You own it or you leave it!"

There is not 'sharing' in certain thing of my life.

If i can't own then i will choose to leave.

Should said, i shouldn't own in the first place if is not belongs to me.

But, i can still choose the journey i going on the next.

Sad yet helpless, and that is the way i should be.

Sometimes when you want to achieve something,

you have to pay with something else.

If i choose a brand new start,

and i going to pay with everything i have for now.

Does it worth?

Sometimes i have no choice if i did a mistake,

and guess this the only way to makes thing right.

God bless me on the journey i going to start.

Is a peaceful night

Can't really recall how long i never sit down at this living room till this late.Was very quiet, peaceful but... mosquitoes flying around as well ~

Time past extremely fast.

My little cutie pie, Ying En already 6 months old.

As a aunty of her, these 2 days is my first time so close with her.

Carry her around walking at shopping mall,

Playing with her and satisfied with her innocent laughter.

What else can be better than an innocent kid?

They are really straight forward with not cover or pretend,

Simple, easy to fulfill and free from stressful living.

Everyone hoping back to their kid's time as well,

Do you ?

When you look at their face,

they just very cute and chubby which makes your heart melted.

Their laughter could really brighten up your day.

You will never realize you become like a kid when you playing with them.

But... you still enjoy to do so,

because their smile and laughter just that amazing.

As the parent of the kid,

from the growing journey and your guardian to the kid,

the more you give, the more you uneasy to see them in suffer.

And also the more you hope to keep them with you as long as you can.

You will not understand the feeling before you become the father/mother.

So much of the memories they have it with you.

The path of growing up of you but growing older to them.

The taller and stronger you grown,

the older and weaker they become.

Reality world is just sad but true,

appreciate whatever we have and try to look around.

Something happened we couldn't change.

Stop blaming yourself or others,

and make the right move to get things better before it's too late.

We always miss a lot of chance and opportunity.

We always rounding at the same circle when we did mistake.

Try to walk out of the circle and get the right move.

Appreciate your life, appreciate your true friend,

appreciate your family and no matter what,

you have to try your best to protect it because you form a 'Family' of yours.

My Twi-Furrie kids...

Is a long day to me...

Today is the fiercest day in ghost month...

Quite bad luck and things not going smooth today too...

Slept really late last night and after work is my school time...

Whole day was thinking of moving house,

How to get extra money, save money for car,

how my life will change, how i drive to work or school and so on...

Back home with tired mind and body,

wash my feet, boil water and yes... maggi time again!

After filling up my noisy stomach,

is time to rest on the bed and help my brother to 'do up' his profile.

At this moment, my two little furrie kids come in to my room.

They just like to disturb me doing work

or took my whole bed by sleeping in the middle of my single bed size mattress.

Is time to teach them some lesson!

I don't bother much, try to sleepy on them to scare them away...

ahahahaha...

One of them go to the left which sitting on my blanket,

the other one go to the right sitting and looking at me.

Both of them clean themselves as usual,

slowly laying down and cuddle themselves to sleep.

One fatty furry balls at the left and another slightly tiny at the right.

Look at their sleeping tight expression,

really melt my heart.

I feel happy to keep them with me for my days.

All this wash away my tired and my fustrated =)

i know they fur is bad for my health,

but i just love them and i will keep them till the day they leave me.

Which is the day i will be very sad =)

Moment Of The Feeling...

Have you ever experience the moment that you wish to freeze it?

It might not related to any emotion or interaction.

It can be a very simple action that caught your attention,

you feel it very beautiful and the feeling is only appear in that moment.

I'm not good in photography.

I'm also not good in photoshop that can fine tune the photos.

I'm just a noob that have some weird feeling towards certain thing,

and i really wish to capture all the moment of the feeling i have...

Still remember i was having lunch downstairs with my colleagues,

The rain heavily pour in sudden...

The ceiling is 5 to 6 floor high up there and it's leaking.

When i put my head up and looking at the ceiling up there,

It's so amazing that i never thought of before!

The lines created by the angle of the building and the checked glass ceiling.

It's just so amazing to look up that way.

Following with a drip of water falling down...

From such a height slowly slowly coming to your eye sight and fall on the table.

I was so impress and stunt with what i saw.

Seriously most of you might thing it's just so normal and stupid.

What so amazing about it?!

But i just have the kind of feeling at that moment.

Looking at the water drips from the glass ceiling.

From a small little dot slowly become big and bigger.

The shape is not fix but somehow you can tell is round and just like a drip of water.

Nothing much but the changes of the shape when it fall,

It's just something i never thought of can be such an amazing view.

Is really very hard to describe the feeling of looking at the water drips.

Somehow it really caught my attention.

I would really like to capture that moment down and the feeling as well.

I love photography but i don't know much about it.

I love it cause i would like to use it to capture all the moment i appreciate.

All the feeling i wish to remember.

Every little single feeling given by the nature's changes.

How much time do i still have to get all this done?

I just hope that when i get older and really old that time,

I can sit down and look at my photography,

recall all those feeling and moment that i have captured.

Of course, i wish to have companion to share on this as well.

But how easy can you get someone to share this kind of feeling?

I just want to do what i think is right.

It may sounds stupid to most of you but ...

at least i did what i want with no regrets in my life. =)

Flash back your memories... =)

Can't update my blog this evening due to some maintenance interruption.
Sitting alone @ Starbucks 1 utama,
suddenly very in mood to write something on my blog,
so i decided to sit down and have a cup of hot chocolate,
squeeze some brain juice and work on my creativity and observation skill.

When first step in this outlet,
OMG... is full .. no more sofa chair and i have to sit at the table with unclear stuff on it.
Everyone is bc with their own thing,
plug-in the headset, listening to their song.
Looking at their own screen, shopping online, checking market and etc.
There is a guy infront of me who dress very casual weekend style,
but with a stress face.
Guess what? i guess he might onleave or he is working during his off duty time or something else.
There are a young couple sitting on the sofa at my left hand side.
talking to each other closely, lovely and share the laptop screen together.
How long you never do those with your lover or partner?
When is your last time have this kind of young and sweet time with the lover?
Does they reminds you on your college or school time pure and innocent love?
I wish i could be that simple still...
Dont have to care bout others, happily and sleep on his shoulder.
Enjoy the sweet moment with him.
At the same time, he will pamper me by touching my face, kiss on my forehead.
Wow! in public tho... how many of us still have the gut to do so?
But i guess i will still do that with my love one, but maybe he not willing to do so?
I don't know =)

Look further at the outdoor are.
Most of them is a gang of friend.
Smoking together, sit comfortably with their legs up !
ahahaha... how many of you tried before when you still a young ciku?!
I believes most of us did!
Talking like nobody else...
True story or added on, nobody knows...
but the same thing is we still will laugh for it,
getting along very well and i guess they do really enjoy the meeting with their gang.
How long you never hang out with you school time best friend?
I believes we all are just too busy to moving forward towards better life,
busy with all the work we think we should do it
Lacking of time to concern and meeting with our family and friends.

Hey, let's give yourself a minute.
Sit down alone, having a cup of drinks.
Observing what's happening around you.
Try to see what have we missing when we keep growing.
Try to give yourself a stop to think back those memories in our life.
What have we been through, where are we now.
Not to regret on what already happened, because we do need to move on.
But no harm for us to stop down and remember those.
Stop all the shitty work, just empty your mind,
laying down on the sofa or bed... take a deep breath...
close your eyes slowly and bring yourself back to the kid's time.

Let's just be a kid for a short while in our life.
We can't turn back time, but we can remember it.
We do not have to be adult and mature on every second everyday.
Give yourself a break.
Bring back the innocent to your life.

Hey, life is still beautiful because we have memories...
Be happy and take a break when you needed.
This is life ...... =)

What a mind thought

Sitting at Starbucks, Empire Gallery Subang alone.

listening to the 80's music,

classic and calm.

A lot of my past flashing in my mind.

It makes me understand all the thing i going through...

is just reflection of my younger life.

God is fair to everyone.

How you hurt people and you will know the feeling one day.

How you love a person, and you will get the love as well.

Be neutral, be yourself, be what you want.

We don't know how many people has passing by in our life.

How many of the heart broken is because of us.

How many of the laughter is because of us.

How bright is the sunshine we have gave to others.

We always blame that life is unfair.

Complain and compare with others.

Have we think of what have we done before?

Is our attitude as bad as others before we comment?

I always believes in Karma.

Maybe you don't see the pain when other are hurts.

But you will understand one day.

As i always said, if one day you get what i mean,

and you still remember me, please give me a call.

Tell me that you finally understand what i meant.

And seriously i got a call from a friend about this before. =P

This is life.

Some people will apply it on relationship,

that's why they hate people who become 3rd party.

Some people apply it on work,

therefore there appear office politic.

Some people apply it on their family,

that's the reason there are some broken and sweet family around.

How you look at your life, your career, your family and your love?

Believes all of us did complain a lots about mentioned above.

While we complain about it,

do we really calm down ourselves, find out the way.

What caused this happen?

Is very hard for us to do so,

that's why there is a chinese sentence said...

The one in the situation lost and the outsider have a clear view.

If you are chinese educated,

don't waste all the sentences you learn.

Use it in your life, try to get yourself walk to a better way.

All the sentences have their own meaning.

Is just depends how you look at it and will you still remember it.

Sometimes be alone is quite sad and lonely,

but look it at the other way.

You have a clear and calm mind,

listen to music, observing around you.

It can be another kind of experience in your life.

I like to write, like to talk.

Maybe i just too much but i like to share my feeling.

Sometimes we are just too worries on how others look at us.

What's wrong with eating a burger with no vegetables at all?

What's wrong to have nasi lemak without sambal?

Sometimes we can't control what we suppose to do at work.

But please give some break to yourself.

Do something to pamper yourself.

Be yourself and enjoy what you like, what you want.

Everyone have their own personality and character.

You will get someone who admire you just because you are in your own way.

Not everyone will into you,

but believes in fate.

If your fate not meeting anyone in your life...

too bad, we can't do much.

Just accept it. hahahaha

Life is short.

We don't know what will happen the next.

Please think through and appreciate everything of yours.

The family, the one you loves, your friends, your life.

Don't lose yourself in your life,

you know that you are just amazing as you are. =)