Is a peaceful night

Can't really recall how long i never sit down at this living room till this late.Was very quiet, peaceful but... mosquitoes flying around as well ~

Time past extremely fast.

My little cutie pie, Ying En already 6 months old.

As a aunty of her, these 2 days is my first time so close with her.

Carry her around walking at shopping mall,

Playing with her and satisfied with her innocent laughter.

What else can be better than an innocent kid?

They are really straight forward with not cover or pretend,

Simple, easy to fulfill and free from stressful living.

Everyone hoping back to their kid's time as well,

Do you ?

When you look at their face,

they just very cute and chubby which makes your heart melted.

Their laughter could really brighten up your day.

You will never realize you become like a kid when you playing with them.

But... you still enjoy to do so,

because their smile and laughter just that amazing.

As the parent of the kid,

from the growing journey and your guardian to the kid,

the more you give, the more you uneasy to see them in suffer.

And also the more you hope to keep them with you as long as you can.

You will not understand the feeling before you become the father/mother.

So much of the memories they have it with you.

The path of growing up of you but growing older to them.

The taller and stronger you grown,

the older and weaker they become.

Reality world is just sad but true,

appreciate whatever we have and try to look around.

Something happened we couldn't change.

Stop blaming yourself or others,

and make the right move to get things better before it's too late.

We always miss a lot of chance and opportunity.

We always rounding at the same circle when we did mistake.

Try to walk out of the circle and get the right move.

Appreciate your life, appreciate your true friend,

appreciate your family and no matter what,

you have to try your best to protect it because you form a 'Family' of yours.

My Twi-Furrie kids...

Is a long day to me...

Today is the fiercest day in ghost month...

Quite bad luck and things not going smooth today too...

Slept really late last night and after work is my school time...

Whole day was thinking of moving house,

How to get extra money, save money for car,

how my life will change, how i drive to work or school and so on...

Back home with tired mind and body,

wash my feet, boil water and yes... maggi time again!

After filling up my noisy stomach,

is time to rest on the bed and help my brother to 'do up' his profile.

At this moment, my two little furrie kids come in to my room.

They just like to disturb me doing work

or took my whole bed by sleeping in the middle of my single bed size mattress.

Is time to teach them some lesson!

I don't bother much, try to sleepy on them to scare them away...

ahahahaha...

One of them go to the left which sitting on my blanket,

the other one go to the right sitting and looking at me.

Both of them clean themselves as usual,

slowly laying down and cuddle themselves to sleep.

One fatty furry balls at the left and another slightly tiny at the right.

Look at their sleeping tight expression,

really melt my heart.

I feel happy to keep them with me for my days.

All this wash away my tired and my fustrated =)

i know they fur is bad for my health,

but i just love them and i will keep them till the day they leave me.

Which is the day i will be very sad =)

Moment Of The Feeling...

Have you ever experience the moment that you wish to freeze it?

It might not related to any emotion or interaction.

It can be a very simple action that caught your attention,

you feel it very beautiful and the feeling is only appear in that moment.

I'm not good in photography.

I'm also not good in photoshop that can fine tune the photos.

I'm just a noob that have some weird feeling towards certain thing,

and i really wish to capture all the moment of the feeling i have...

Still remember i was having lunch downstairs with my colleagues,

The rain heavily pour in sudden...

The ceiling is 5 to 6 floor high up there and it's leaking.

When i put my head up and looking at the ceiling up there,

It's so amazing that i never thought of before!

The lines created by the angle of the building and the checked glass ceiling.

It's just so amazing to look up that way.

Following with a drip of water falling down...

From such a height slowly slowly coming to your eye sight and fall on the table.

I was so impress and stunt with what i saw.

Seriously most of you might thing it's just so normal and stupid.

What so amazing about it?!

But i just have the kind of feeling at that moment.

Looking at the water drips from the glass ceiling.

From a small little dot slowly become big and bigger.

The shape is not fix but somehow you can tell is round and just like a drip of water.

Nothing much but the changes of the shape when it fall,

It's just something i never thought of can be such an amazing view.

Is really very hard to describe the feeling of looking at the water drips.

Somehow it really caught my attention.

I would really like to capture that moment down and the feeling as well.

I love photography but i don't know much about it.

I love it cause i would like to use it to capture all the moment i appreciate.

All the feeling i wish to remember.

Every little single feeling given by the nature's changes.

How much time do i still have to get all this done?

I just hope that when i get older and really old that time,

I can sit down and look at my photography,

recall all those feeling and moment that i have captured.

Of course, i wish to have companion to share on this as well.

But how easy can you get someone to share this kind of feeling?

I just want to do what i think is right.

It may sounds stupid to most of you but ...

at least i did what i want with no regrets in my life. =)

Flash back your memories... =)

Can't update my blog this evening due to some maintenance interruption.
Sitting alone @ Starbucks 1 utama,
suddenly very in mood to write something on my blog,
so i decided to sit down and have a cup of hot chocolate,
squeeze some brain juice and work on my creativity and observation skill.

When first step in this outlet,
OMG... is full .. no more sofa chair and i have to sit at the table with unclear stuff on it.
Everyone is bc with their own thing,
plug-in the headset, listening to their song.
Looking at their own screen, shopping online, checking market and etc.
There is a guy infront of me who dress very casual weekend style,
but with a stress face.
Guess what? i guess he might onleave or he is working during his off duty time or something else.
There are a young couple sitting on the sofa at my left hand side.
talking to each other closely, lovely and share the laptop screen together.
How long you never do those with your lover or partner?
When is your last time have this kind of young and sweet time with the lover?
Does they reminds you on your college or school time pure and innocent love?
I wish i could be that simple still...
Dont have to care bout others, happily and sleep on his shoulder.
Enjoy the sweet moment with him.
At the same time, he will pamper me by touching my face, kiss on my forehead.
Wow! in public tho... how many of us still have the gut to do so?
But i guess i will still do that with my love one, but maybe he not willing to do so?
I don't know =)

Look further at the outdoor are.
Most of them is a gang of friend.
Smoking together, sit comfortably with their legs up !
ahahaha... how many of you tried before when you still a young ciku?!
I believes most of us did!
Talking like nobody else...
True story or added on, nobody knows...
but the same thing is we still will laugh for it,
getting along very well and i guess they do really enjoy the meeting with their gang.
How long you never hang out with you school time best friend?
I believes we all are just too busy to moving forward towards better life,
busy with all the work we think we should do it
Lacking of time to concern and meeting with our family and friends.

Hey, let's give yourself a minute.
Sit down alone, having a cup of drinks.
Observing what's happening around you.
Try to see what have we missing when we keep growing.
Try to give yourself a stop to think back those memories in our life.
What have we been through, where are we now.
Not to regret on what already happened, because we do need to move on.
But no harm for us to stop down and remember those.
Stop all the shitty work, just empty your mind,
laying down on the sofa or bed... take a deep breath...
close your eyes slowly and bring yourself back to the kid's time.

Let's just be a kid for a short while in our life.
We can't turn back time, but we can remember it.
We do not have to be adult and mature on every second everyday.
Give yourself a break.
Bring back the innocent to your life.

Hey, life is still beautiful because we have memories...
Be happy and take a break when you needed.
This is life ...... =)

What a mind thought

Sitting at Starbucks, Empire Gallery Subang alone.

listening to the 80's music,

classic and calm.

A lot of my past flashing in my mind.

It makes me understand all the thing i going through...

is just reflection of my younger life.

God is fair to everyone.

How you hurt people and you will know the feeling one day.

How you love a person, and you will get the love as well.

Be neutral, be yourself, be what you want.

We don't know how many people has passing by in our life.

How many of the heart broken is because of us.

How many of the laughter is because of us.

How bright is the sunshine we have gave to others.

We always blame that life is unfair.

Complain and compare with others.

Have we think of what have we done before?

Is our attitude as bad as others before we comment?

I always believes in Karma.

Maybe you don't see the pain when other are hurts.

But you will understand one day.

As i always said, if one day you get what i mean,

and you still remember me, please give me a call.

Tell me that you finally understand what i meant.

And seriously i got a call from a friend about this before. =P

This is life.

Some people will apply it on relationship,

that's why they hate people who become 3rd party.

Some people apply it on work,

therefore there appear office politic.

Some people apply it on their family,

that's the reason there are some broken and sweet family around.

How you look at your life, your career, your family and your love?

Believes all of us did complain a lots about mentioned above.

While we complain about it,

do we really calm down ourselves, find out the way.

What caused this happen?

Is very hard for us to do so,

that's why there is a chinese sentence said...

The one in the situation lost and the outsider have a clear view.

If you are chinese educated,

don't waste all the sentences you learn.

Use it in your life, try to get yourself walk to a better way.

All the sentences have their own meaning.

Is just depends how you look at it and will you still remember it.

Sometimes be alone is quite sad and lonely,

but look it at the other way.

You have a clear and calm mind,

listen to music, observing around you.

It can be another kind of experience in your life.

I like to write, like to talk.

Maybe i just too much but i like to share my feeling.

Sometimes we are just too worries on how others look at us.

What's wrong with eating a burger with no vegetables at all?

What's wrong to have nasi lemak without sambal?

Sometimes we can't control what we suppose to do at work.

But please give some break to yourself.

Do something to pamper yourself.

Be yourself and enjoy what you like, what you want.

Everyone have their own personality and character.

You will get someone who admire you just because you are in your own way.

Not everyone will into you,

but believes in fate.

If your fate not meeting anyone in your life...

too bad, we can't do much.

Just accept it. hahahaha

Life is short.

We don't know what will happen the next.

Please think through and appreciate everything of yours.

The family, the one you loves, your friends, your life.

Don't lose yourself in your life,

you know that you are just amazing as you are. =)

我所知道的事。。。

喜欢陶吉吉的爱很简单，因为歌词很适合。

“忘了是怎么开始，也许就是对你有一种感觉，

忽然间发现自己，已深深爱上你，真的很简单。。。

没有后悔日夜为爱去追随，那个疯狂的人是我。

I Love You"

真的有点忘了我们如何开始。

觉得就像那首歌的歌词那样，

当我忽然发现时，已经深深地爱上你了。

从开始时，每天都像连体婴那样出出进进。

每天都要见面，都很甜蜜。

可是，我们有了第一次的争吵。

还有点儿严重那样，大家都睡不了。

可是啊，有谁会完全适合对方呢？

我们大家找个协调的方法解决了。

我们没有因为争吵而放弃。

我觉得我们可以做的更好~！

还记得我第一次对你发神经的讯息吗？

你还一头雾那样的不懂我为什么那样，

对我第一次大喊，还关了电话。。。

第一次，你看了我的解释的信息后，

来到我家对我道歉，还流下了你第一次的泪。

当然你这个臭脾气的大番薯怎可能之后就风平浪静呢。

我们有了第二、第三、第四和不断的争吵。

我想啊，那段时间应该是你人生算蛮低潮的时候吧。

没了工作、没了安全感、压力很大吧。

看着你，却让我想要把你好好照顾的想法。

我开始尝试在你努力找工的同时，

我努力的为你煲汤、煮饭，给你需要的支持。

尽我所能得帮忙，要一起牵手度过。

陪在你身边，好让你知道，怎么都好。。。

还有我在你身边支持你，陪你一起过。

可能对你而言，这是一段难过的回忆。

可是，对我而言却是甘甜的回忆。

我们除了有苦涩，还有着甜，

回头看，还是觉得是甘甜的

慢慢的，你变了~

越变越多。。。从小番薯变成大番薯。。。

从漏气的肚腩变成充气球。。。

从那尖型变成圆型的脸蛋和下巴。。。

不过，这一切的改变我并没有嫌弃，

反而我越来越爱你。

不止是外表，而你的内在也一样。

你变得不再对我大声说话，更关心我，

比起以前更细心、更爱我了。

这一切我都感觉得到，

当我现在回想这一切时，还真的流泪了。

你从来不知道，我多么的渴望得到你的肯定，

听见与看见你对我所承诺的。

多么 多么的想看见那一切一切实现的那一刻。

你不懂我有多么的喜欢在车里靠着你的肩膀，

看着那满是星星的夜空。

也许我们还没有机会去旅行，可是那种感觉好舒服。

你啊，就像番薯那样的笨。

你不懂在我伤心流泪的那一刻，我感觉到。。。

你已不像以前那样觉得压力而逃避，

你现在是要我把头靠在你的肩、

紧紧地握着我的手，然后抚摸着我的泪湿的脸庞。

好像在告诉我，你都知道我的感受。

有你在这里，你会让一切都变好，我不需再难过。

你不会明白那种感觉对我来说，是多么的温暖、

多么的可靠、多么的想就这样一辈子的依赖下去。

因为你的改变，让我失控了。

你对我而言已经比自己还重要。

可是，你这一切的改变，却让我承受不了失去你的痛。

除外，也让我开始自私的要把你独占。

而我想，我的这个改变为我们带来了很多烦恼。

我们开始乱了。。。

一切的平静，有了涟漪。

这一切却让我看到了，我想得到却会因此而失去。

我爱的太凶，却把你吓走。

对大家造成了压力，我也变成了你的负担。

写着、写着，我的泪却停不了。

伤感、感触、感动、激动、开心。。。

回想起之前你告诉我，你觉得你疼我多过她时，

我把这当了你会留在我身边的唯一希望。

有时候真的好想简简单单，只有两个人，

手牵手的一直走下去。

不管什么困难或欢乐，都一起牵手度过。

真正的完成两个字。。。

那就是 “我们”

我以为。。。这一切、一切

我以为我很坚强。

我以为我能挨过。

我以为我能放开。

我以为我能不想。

我以为我能不理。

我以为我能忘掉。

我以为我会若无其事。

我以为我不伤感。

我以为我不痛心。

我以为我活得下去。

我以为我不再想起。

我以为我不会再哭。

我以为你还会在身旁。

我以为你还在我生活里。

我以为起床时还看见你。

我以为我还睡在你的肩膀。

我以为还有你从背后抱我。

我以为还有你陪我入睡。

我以为你还紧紧握着我的手。

我以为你还会亲亲我的头。

我以为没有你在身旁会坚强。

我以为没有你在我能像以前的活下去。

我以为我可以把对你的思念放在工作。

我以为只要忙就没时间想起我们的事。

我以为时间可以洗掉我对你的爱。

我以为我还能像以前那样的笑。

原来这一切都是我以为。。。

原来我只能一个人坐着哭。

原来我只能勉强的欢笑。

原来我只能假装忙碌。

原来我只能想像被你拥抱着。

原来我只能自己握着自己的手。

原来我只会一个人坐着发呆。

原来我没有了生活的目标。

原来我只像有脑袋的行尸走肉。

原来我撑不到没有你的日子。

原来你已比我自己来的重要。

原来真相和想像是那么大差别。。。

原来我是那么笨的把你松开了手。。。

原来我不再能这样子的笑了。。。 =)